Nekole's Birth stories:
I am thrilled that you are here to get to know me and the work I am exhilarated about doing with you!
I am a mother of two beautiful girls. I am the wife of an amazing husband.
I am the friend of many magnificent people.
I am a healer. I am a woman.
My story, like yours is fascinating and multifaceted. My mother started doing massage therapy in Hawaii in concurrence with my conception. She went on to be a leader in the Massage Therapy movement, eventually turning her fierce spirit to birth work. I was her only child for some time and she was my primary parent. The result was an apprenticeship for me like none other.
Eventually, I flew from my Hawaiian nest to attend Barnard College of Columbia University in New York City. There I studied science, religion, language, and politics. I learned that women were “oppressed” and that men were our leaders. I also learned we were meant to change this! As a Barnard graduate it was understood that I was to lead the way for many others in this endeavor.
I lived in NYC for 15 years where I was able to weave together the various Eastern and Western influences and experiences of my life. Some of the greatest weaving I did surrounded recovering from being in downtown Manhattan on Sept. 11th, 2001. It was there I learned about post-traumatic stress and ultimately about the profound healing that can come from an event that breaks down all you think you know the world to be.
On February 22, 2006 I gave birth to my first daughter. This transition was larger than I could ever have imagined! I know the threads from that event will be a continual source of weaving for me. So far, I have found a connection to my family I never thought was possible. I regained a deep sense of safety with my mother that I had lost for sometime. I gained a level of intimacy with my husband for which each of us craved but never knew how to attain. I have gained grounding, patience, humility and countless other boons. I have also gained many gifts that at first glance confused me. I was LIVID after the birth of my first daughter. I was livid during the birth, and I was overall disappointed…in myself.
These threads did not integrate for me until I was staring down the birth of my second daughter. As I processed my emotions to access the willingness to birth my second daughter into the world, I found rage and I found malcontent towards myself. Working with other women that are not frightened by their power helped me find the power to inspect what was hidden in that rage – a rage I had denied myself access to for most of my life. Dealing with the feelings of disappointment that had come up around my first birth helped me turn the volume down a bit on that nagging perfectionist voice I carry within me every day. Truly all this helped me to love and be loved more. These are some of the many wounds I was able to heal for myself by connecting to my Power to Birth. I want to help you do the same!
Throughout my life yoga and mediation have been a primary grounding force for me. My Kundalini was awaked by Baba Muktananda when I was 3 years old. I walked with him until his passing. I then walked with his successor Guru Mayi Chidvelasananda for some time. Eventually, these Tantric roots took on other forms. Today I am an Ashtanga practitioner as often as my life allows for me to be, and my sanity would elude me if I did not meditate regularly.
In January of 2008 my family moved to Seattle. In the fertile lands of the Northwest I have found a community of doulas, midwives and sacred healers that has truly allowed me to bring into form the work I want to do in this world. It is here that I have found support for what has been steeping within me for so long. I created TantricBirth to help women and their families transform the birthing experience. I want to take birth out of the shadows of fear and into the light of empowerment. Join me in a walk to liberation!
Thank you for visiting my site and getting to know me a better.